My mood: THANKFUL!
May today there be a peace within you. May you trust that you are exactly where God wants you to be, he does not make mistakes. I hope that you all know and don't forget the infinite possibilities that are born of a faith in God, who created you with unique gifts that you may not realize yet. Pass on those gifts with the love that has been given to you and be content with just the way you are. God does NOT make mistakes, you are NOT a mistake, and when we make mistakes we can turn it into a lesson and be forgiven. Let this knowledge settle into your heart and allow your soul freedom. It is there for each and every one of us if you just open your eyes and stop your busy life enough to see it. Hope you all have a great weekend. Love you guys!
Friday, September 25, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Over and over in my head
My mood: bullied :(
So here is just some random venting and if you know me at all you know where this is coming from... too damn compassionate and caring Gina. Gah! I wish she would just go away sometimes!!!
I play the strong one because Im tired of being broken down, but why cant my heart just shut off the caring emotion for just a day. If I could be as careless and inconsiderate and shut off the emotion in me that gets me so fired up. I know Im doing the right thing, ok well I believe so. I am not going to keep giving and giving and keep being hurt over and over again. I miss my best friend, I miss the carefree fun loving me. Im still the happy smiling girl but underneath all that... I am still so sore at the core. Yeah, as strong as Ive been, tonight is going to be that night I just breakdown... I fell it boiling over. I know I say Im fine and Im good, and I am, and I always will be. But that doenst take the hurt out anymore. They say time heals all pain, but does it really? How much time is really enough?
I really just want everyone to be happy and I wish I could take on everyone's heartache and pain, and you all know that I usually am that person. Is this the stage where I start feeling sorry? I mean denial, pity, sorry? Is that how it goes? I feel like I have new eyes on and I havent been all I can and should be, we all slip and fall, but are a few mistakes really this deserving by karma? Dont get me wrong, I am so blessed!!!! I thank God everyday for the wonderful people in my life, and the wonderful people he has shown me to get closer to the last few weeks, but when does the sorrys stop? I know I am a great person with a heart of gold, everyone tells me that. Then how come others dont see that?
I put others first because thats how I am, as long as everyone else is happy, I am satisfied. I guess the hunger from "satisfied" to "full" are a far distance though. Like in Twilight, the animal blood satisfies but human blood fills. Ugh! I hate careless people, but for once why cant I get a break and be that person? The person who doesnt care who gets hurt as long as I would have what I wanted and the person who could lie to get what I want and know I would always be forgiven because someone else (me) is stupid enough to keep doing it.
There are make you and break you moments in life, and I will NEVER be broke down, I refuse to. But for some reason that one heartstring keeps playing its sad song in the back of the steady beat that keeps me going. Sorry just venting...
So here is just some random venting and if you know me at all you know where this is coming from... too damn compassionate and caring Gina. Gah! I wish she would just go away sometimes!!!
I play the strong one because Im tired of being broken down, but why cant my heart just shut off the caring emotion for just a day. If I could be as careless and inconsiderate and shut off the emotion in me that gets me so fired up. I know Im doing the right thing, ok well I believe so. I am not going to keep giving and giving and keep being hurt over and over again. I miss my best friend, I miss the carefree fun loving me. Im still the happy smiling girl but underneath all that... I am still so sore at the core. Yeah, as strong as Ive been, tonight is going to be that night I just breakdown... I fell it boiling over. I know I say Im fine and Im good, and I am, and I always will be. But that doenst take the hurt out anymore. They say time heals all pain, but does it really? How much time is really enough?
I really just want everyone to be happy and I wish I could take on everyone's heartache and pain, and you all know that I usually am that person. Is this the stage where I start feeling sorry? I mean denial, pity, sorry? Is that how it goes? I feel like I have new eyes on and I havent been all I can and should be, we all slip and fall, but are a few mistakes really this deserving by karma? Dont get me wrong, I am so blessed!!!! I thank God everyday for the wonderful people in my life, and the wonderful people he has shown me to get closer to the last few weeks, but when does the sorrys stop? I know I am a great person with a heart of gold, everyone tells me that. Then how come others dont see that?
I put others first because thats how I am, as long as everyone else is happy, I am satisfied. I guess the hunger from "satisfied" to "full" are a far distance though. Like in Twilight, the animal blood satisfies but human blood fills. Ugh! I hate careless people, but for once why cant I get a break and be that person? The person who doesnt care who gets hurt as long as I would have what I wanted and the person who could lie to get what I want and know I would always be forgiven because someone else (me) is stupid enough to keep doing it.
There are make you and break you moments in life, and I will NEVER be broke down, I refuse to. But for some reason that one heartstring keeps playing its sad song in the back of the steady beat that keeps me going. Sorry just venting...
Friday, September 4, 2009
Male Best Friends
I stole this from a friend and it so rings true... don't let something good pass you by.
I'm sorry that I bought you roses to tell you that i like you
I'm sorry That I was raised with respect not to sleep with you when you were drunk
I'm sorry That my body's not ripped enough to "satisfy" your wants
I'm sorry that I open your car door, and pull out your chair like I was raised
I'm sorry That I'm not cute enough to be "your guy"
I'm sorry That I am actually nice; not an asshole
I'm sorry I don't have a huge bank account to buy you expensive things
I'm sorry I like to spend quality nights at home cuddling with you, instead of at a club or party
I'm sorry I would rather make love to you then just f**k you like some random guy.
I'm sorry That I am always the one you need to Talk To, but never good enough to date
I'm sorry That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere
I'm sorry If I start not being there, and being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new asshole comes around
I'm sorry If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours,
instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before work
I'm sorry That you can't realize.. I've been the one all along.
The one who's been there for you, the one who cares so much.
I'm sorry If you read this and know somebody like this but don't care,
But most of all I'm sorry For not being sorry anymore
I'm sorry That you can't accept me for who I am
I'm sorry I can never do anything right, and nothing that I do is good enough to make it in your world.
I'm sorry I caught your bf with another girl and told you about it,
I thought that was what friends were for...
I'm sorry That I told you I loved you and actually meant it.
I'm sorry That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your bf was threatening you,
instead of spending time with my family.
I'm Sorry That i cared
I'm sorry That I listen to you at night talk about how you wish you could have done something different.
Ladies always bitch and bitch to their friends that there is never any good guys out there,
and they always end up with assholes who mistreat them.
Well ladies next time you're bitching, maybe look up to see who you're bitching to,
maybe that special someone is right there hanging on your every word as usual,
screaming in his head "Why won't you give me a chance?"
Because the person you are usually searching for is right by you.
I'm sorry that I bought you roses to tell you that i like you
I'm sorry That I was raised with respect not to sleep with you when you were drunk
I'm sorry That my body's not ripped enough to "satisfy" your wants
I'm sorry that I open your car door, and pull out your chair like I was raised
I'm sorry That I'm not cute enough to be "your guy"
I'm sorry That I am actually nice; not an asshole
I'm sorry I don't have a huge bank account to buy you expensive things
I'm sorry I like to spend quality nights at home cuddling with you, instead of at a club or party
I'm sorry I would rather make love to you then just f**k you like some random guy.
I'm sorry That I am always the one you need to Talk To, but never good enough to date
I'm sorry That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere
I'm sorry If I start not being there, and being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new asshole comes around
I'm sorry If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours,
instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before work
I'm sorry That you can't realize.. I've been the one all along.
The one who's been there for you, the one who cares so much.
I'm sorry If you read this and know somebody like this but don't care,
But most of all I'm sorry For not being sorry anymore
I'm sorry That you can't accept me for who I am
I'm sorry I can never do anything right, and nothing that I do is good enough to make it in your world.
I'm sorry I caught your bf with another girl and told you about it,
I thought that was what friends were for...
I'm sorry That I told you I loved you and actually meant it.
I'm sorry That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your bf was threatening you,
instead of spending time with my family.
I'm Sorry That i cared
I'm sorry That I listen to you at night talk about how you wish you could have done something different.
Ladies always bitch and bitch to their friends that there is never any good guys out there,
and they always end up with assholes who mistreat them.
Well ladies next time you're bitching, maybe look up to see who you're bitching to,
maybe that special someone is right there hanging on your every word as usual,
screaming in his head "Why won't you give me a chance?"
Because the person you are usually searching for is right by you.
The value of life
To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.
To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.
To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.
To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.
To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.
To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.
To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.
Time waits for no one..
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend or family member:
LOSE ONE.
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.
To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.
To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.
To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.
To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.
To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.
To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.
Time waits for no one..
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend or family member:
LOSE ONE.
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